Movies in 15 minutes
By someone by the name of "cleolinda"
She makes me laugh, and so I am directing you good people to her LJ where's she's parodied such films as Harry Potter, King Arthur, 300, V for Vendetta and, you know, more.
They're good for a chuckle.
enjoy

So, when my brain was like "I totally don't have that evening class today, I can go home early!"
Er...I totally had the evening class today. Too bad I wasn't there!
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Alright, so I've got a French class...I ended up going for a 102 class...my advisor claimed it was a better idea if I wasn't too comfortable with the language anymore.
It would be a lot cooler, however, if there had been a better time available.
...The only one I could fit to my schedule was a Mon/Wed class at 7:00-9:15 in the evening.
Oh dear...I don't think I'm going to like this...

As for sciences, they all appear to either be filled up already or conflict with my schedule--so I don't know what to do about that.
And my Tuesdays and Thursdays are still completely blank.
Aargh.

...But...I won't have a Saturday class anymore.

And I'm oh so sleepy.


eta: I'm also having a bit of a panic attack about this Idy-business. We had...little messages on the NaNo site. And she's erased hers and just made it something kind of really ambiguous--I wish I knew if that was because she got in trouble or she's just trying to be more incognito or what? I'm never going to see her again, I get anxious just thinking about this whole problem. And I just don't know how to make this better. Sorry sorry sorry.

Ok, so I admit I should have been looking all of this stuff up way earlier.
But I only decided to start looking up classes today--I register Monday (tomorrow).
I was thinking of saving French for next year b/c I haven't managed to take a placement test (yet?). I can technically register for classes up until the week before they start I think, so I could take a test this week and then sign up, maybe? So I was going to finish up my Gen Ed credits by taking a Chem class--but it turns out that conflicts with my required Cinema class...so I can't do *that* at the moment. Either...

So right now my schedule looks like this:

Monday
English 215--9:00-9:50
History of the Motion Picture--11:30-2:15

Tuesday
Uh, what?

Wednesday
English 215--9:00-9:50
Visual Storytelling (montage)--11:30-2:30

Thursday
Seriously, what?

Friday
English 215--9:00-9:50

This...seems like a bit of a problem...That's three classes and I don't know what other classes I can take. I'm sure there are some electives I could look up but I don't really know how to do that.....So I think I'm just going to have to go see my advisor early tomorrow morning and ask for her help. I feel dumb...but what're you going to do? It's my own fault for now thinking this through earlier.

eta: and yeah, I don't think I'll be getting a phone call tonight :/

Hm, I was going to run into my advisor about classes next semester b/c she said she'd have walk-ins today--but when I got there, the lady behind the desk told everyone to leave until after 1:00 b/c advisors were full up.
And that would be ok if Lawson wasn't coming to get me in just a bit.
I think I might just email her--I have to fill out a form declaring my minor(s?) and I have to ask whether or not I should try to take French b/c I never got the chance to take a placement test. It may have to wait until next year :/ Oops...mother's not going to be too happy about that.
Anyway, Lawson's coming because we're going to zip back to Charlottesville and go to the LitMag's Wizard of Oz Sing Along. Heh, yeah.
I have this feeling, though, that we're probably not going to be spending that much time in the auditorium.
Idy doesn't know I'm coming (I don't think)--so that's going to make things interesting.........
Anyway, hopefully things will be groovy.
Hm...It's Ezra's birthday and I think I'm going to make him a card--mostly b/c I need something to kill the time before Lawson gets here...and I like making cards. So! I'll go do that.

(You know, that sounds like it should be a euphemism for something...)

( Meme! But...not one stolen from Ariel. T'is different )

Idy did get to call after all--it just didn't happen until 8:20 pm.
She tells me that she is now allowed/guaranteed a weekly call every Sunday, so...that's...something.
Still no idea when we'll be allowed to see each other. Idy's ever the optimist (or she's at least acting chipper)--but it really doesn't feel like it's going to happen any time soon. I just can't see it somehow...

So, I'm pretty sure I'm not going to get a call from Idy today and I'm way behind on NaNoWriMo because I haven't gotten any time to write the past two days--but, I got my laundry done, it's a really nice day, I'm sitting in the commons where I don't have to worry about Dominique suddenly walking in trying to talk to me, I'll probably go hang out with people later, the shoot last night went really well and I'm listening to Enter the Haggis.

So...yeah.

(I may give a proper update about filming later because it *was* pretty cool)

...

-Caught in the rain for the second day in a row b/c my umbrella is a pansy and can't stand up to gusts of wind w/o trying to cart me off with it...
-!0,000+ words on NaNo...er, behind--but it's better than nothing!
-Starting job next week!
-Coldsore kind of makes it look like I got punched in the lip...
-Got a packet of letters from Idy yesterday that she was finally allowed to send--it was heartwarming and heart breaking at the same time since I can't send any in reply...Ach.
-Dominique is trying to talk to me and I really don't feel like having a conversation...
-Oh man, and I just realized that the fact that her class was canceled means I'm not going to get the room to myself like most Thursdays! D: I like my me-time...I might have to bother Shuffy to let me hang out in his room or something...really don't want to go back outside though. Oh life, you are so complicated. Er...not really, I'm just whiney :/
-Wow...my desk is really cluttered. The whole corner over here really...
-Oh, I watched that episode of Supernatural (Trickster, you know...)--I'm still not really sure what I think of that show.
-It's apparently raining everywhere! Here, Charlottesville, New York, Tokyo. My whole family is being rained on! What's the weather like for everybody else?
-Never did manage to see the doctor :/ But I'm feeling less like dying, sooo...

And that's about it I sh'pose. Not sure what I'm going to do all day since I want to avoid the outside as much as possible.

crap, I'm getting fat!
And yet I'm still going to eat this bag of M&Ms?
Uh...yeah... :/

(p.s. two different kids movies about aliens are using In the Hall of the Mountain King in their trailers......weird)

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-Walked 2 hours w/Shuffy out to Target/Barnes & Noble yesterday.
-Watched Taken on Blu-Ray when we got back
-New Sketchbook
-Dominique's been gone all weekend--don't know where, don't care.
-chest pains seems to have gone away after yesterday--still, we'll see if they come back or not
-really rather sore in light of spontaneous exercise in an attempt to feel better, oooaah
-have super-successfully become friends w/Joe ('cause he called me an awesome person and it made me feel better about meself)
-must do some more NaNo writing today

yep yep

Oh depression, how it takes me...

-finished my FI paper today (even though it was due yesterday), camped out in the commons until I got it done. Hooray for (somewhat belated) productivity!
-3,000+ words for NaNoWriMo so far, er...could be/should be doing better. But, damnit, exposition is hard...
-Literati was having a Book/Bake sale, there were some Star Trek books on the shelf...I may have bought two of them...Just for laughs. (I mean, really, one was titled "The Joy Machine")
-Have successfully become friends with Joe!
-Cannot wait until we all live in a proper house/appartment next year (must remember to ask Shuffy how the search is going)
-Hm, Japan apparently doesn't have the whole daylight saving time thing...so if I want to talk to Gilly on Wednesdays anymore, I'd have to get up around 7:30...eerrrrrr. Oh wait, Dominique is still in the room at that point...so I wouldn't be able to talk anyway. Poo...hm...
-On a really big British-movie/Python kick right now...ok, that may not sound out of the usual...but...I need stuff to download/watch! So little of it is accessible (you know, aside from actually paying for these sort of things)
-so, so sleepy.
(-also, missing Cassidy like wooooaaaah--I mean, what am I supposed to do???)

Well, I've officially started my novel for NaNoWriMo...yeah, it's getting off to a bit of a bumpy start--but hey, this is no shock.

Halloween wasn't bad--went out to Belle Isle and went in search of free candy sometime later in the evening. It was insanely crowded in the neighborhood near VCU--I never experienced such a thing in Charlottesville so it was interesting. Afterwards we hung out in Shuffy's room until about 3 (hee, we watched a bit of Top Gear: a British show I had heard of and seen tiny bits of, but I may now have to steal it from Shuffy b/c....yeah)--and today I slept until 12:30 and the only real reason I got up was b/c Maddy texted everybody to see if we wanted to go get food.
Today wasn't too bad either--pretty short what with all the sleeping...

Eh...I've felt kind of disconnected ever since I got back to the room. I'm not sure what it is, perhaps the weather. Not exactly sure what I mean to say--I don't mean lonely. Just a little detached from reality--it was probably the Chai latte :/ But whatevs...

Also Idy never called today and that did make me sad...oh well...

Meanwhile I have an annotated bibliography due on Tuesday (that I haven't really looked up any sources for), fuck fuck fuck.

ETA: Life just got a lot better!! Shuffy texted me saying he got me a job at the VCU library. Aaaah what a relief! And it seems like a pretty good gig actually, you just go in basically whenever you can and work for a couple hours. Sweet, sweet goodness.

Didn't get up until 11 today, it was so nice...But now I don't know what to do.
(Actually, I might just go out and sit in the commons or something--just so I'm not in the room for so long a time.)
I kept dreaming about these stupid Dominique issues. It was obnoxious...

According to Shuffy, who ran into her over at Shafer last night, she was talking about how 'glad' she was she could 'control herself in those kinds of situations' b/c she was apparently ready to push Erika into a wardrobe and "poor little Toast" would have gotten caught up in it too.
Poor little Toast???
Excuse me but fuck off--that really irks me, really. You see, this is why I still get the feeling she thinks she's better than me in some way. I-just-erg...That's ridiculously condescending if you ask me.

Aaaaaanyway...there's not much else to say at the mo'
Just some more venting!

Well, things seem to have settled down.
JP appeared out of nowhere today and when I told him about the roommate situation, he offered to come talk to Dominique. And that was good because then some actual talking happened.
It was still a bit 'eh...'--but apparently Dominique talked our RA at some point--so she came over and there was another talk.
I felt like a bit of a jackass though b/c we were supposed to say what bothered us/what big problems we have--and I really didn't have any (the overhead light thing and leaving the TV on didn't feel like big enough deals to mention--b/c, really, that's easy enough to live with if I can complain a bit to somebody every now and then)--and I can't say 'I don't like your random statements about boring stuff!'...so...I just didn't say much. Our RA was like ".......I feel like you're thinking things but not saying them..." "Err, noo...."
So basically I'm the one causing all the problems, yeah. Yeah.
So afterwards I felt pretty much like shit--but Dominique seemed to be in a better mood.
She just, uh, she just really doesn't like Erika anymore. :/
But I still like you Erika! Really, I love hanging out with you.

Oh well...at least the room isn't filled with anger and resentment clouds anymore.


But but but!! Did I mention??? Idy got to call me on Sunday! Her parents let her talk to me! Hopefully she'll get to call again next week as well. I really hope so.
Seriously, I got her call and I wanted to cry, I got the shakes and everything (I was...not exactly in the best emotional state at the time--what with all this hullaballoo).

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahso I didn't really mention this before because it was too nerdy.
But well...there were results!

Aha...so...Sometime ago I sent some letters off to a certain group of British men...And well, I never actually expected anything in way of response.
But I walked into the room moments ago to find a letter on my desk (Dominique having checked the mail for once). It was curious b/c the envelope was a tad big for anything the family may have sent--I then noticed a sticker that said "By Air Mail" and next to that, the words "Royal Mail"
So...soooo...I opened up the letter to find a signed photograph from Michael Palin.
Eheh...
Ok, I know it's the standard response--but it's still wicked cool!!
Ach.
Plus, on the address, they shipped it to 'Lizzie "Toast" Kindler'
So...you know.
I'm all giddy.

This made my day (week? um, maybe) a lot better...

Oh so tired......I meant to get sleep over this break--but of course I ended up staying up later than I do in the first place. Eeeeerg. 7:00 is going to hurt like hell tomorrow morning. Oh well.

Got to see LaurenMoran and RJ Saturday, had tea, it was nice. Plus! Lauren brought me a flag back from England, wee. Damn, her.

So...I never mailed in my immunization records, apparently. And I have no idea where they are now. I'm going to have to go back to C'ville at some point this week so I can stop by the doctor's office and (hopefully) get some copies. Arg arg arg.

And I'm kind of horribly behind on a lot of Focused Inquiry work. Crap!
I'm just so uninspired by that class--I am discouraged by that class in fact.

I think I've decided to go ahead and minor in Creative Writing and French though.
It was either that or do English as a second major aaaand....
I figure I had better pick up French again--especially if I want to work in the UK in the future (they pretty much expect you to know some French, I've been told). But with Creative Writing, life might not suck too much?
I mean, I really only have a handful of weeks of FI left. Ooooh man...I don't care if I get a C in that class--as long as I get through it. It's supposed to make me a critical thinker though--and my advisor is like "That's exactly what we want for our Cinema students!" Er...
Whatever!
French is somewhat intimidating, yes--but I can only hope I'll find a good teacher and be able to get back into the swing of things. I can always warm up with the lower levels, right?

I-left-all-my-mango-juice-at-home.
My mom bought me a bunch of cans during my visit and I left them all in the fridge.
Whhyyyyy??
Oh well, I guess I can get them when I go back Friday. Life.

( I felt like putting this under a cut--which means it's not strictly necessary that you read it. )

They turned the heating on in our dorms and it creates a nice little pocket of warmth up on my bunk. It's cozy.
Granted, at times I'm sure it's going to be like "aaaaagh!heatstroke!" but for now I'm just going to enjoy it.

La.

EDIT: Oh god, I left my ring at home! My dinky-rusty-fake-cladagh!! I left it in my room at home!! I picked up all my bracelets and stuff in one clump, it must still be on my bedside table.
*cry* Lame!

I feel sick and horrible and like something's been irreparably damaged.

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Well, I got to hang out with Lawson today, we swung by AHS and hung out with Ms. Wood for a while. It was really good to see her again (but also really weird to be back in high school). We got yelled at by letting Lydia in through the front door w/o going through the main office (it's like a prison there now, man)--the woman threatened to write us up and we all just kind of snickered.
Afterwards we went downtown and got some pizza, wandered around. It was super cold but it was still a lot of fun. We played Kickie Foots.
Oh, before we went to AHS, Lawson and I were hanging out in Fashion Square Mall--we were in Waldens and he was looking at a book of dirty jokes. Later at Christians, he pulls it out of his back pocket.
"Dude, did you steal that??"
"Uuuh..."
So yeah, that was mildly entertaining and worrisome at the same time.
Many antics occurred.

For the most part it was a pretty good day.......aside from the whole...awful part...where Idy and I had to ignore each other during her 8th period until she left to do something for Ceramics.
I wasn't going to go in because I didn't want to feel like an asshole--so I told Ms. Wood about it (the general situation and why I couldn't go in her room).
"So are you leaving or sticking with Lawson?"
"I'm hanging out with Lawson actually..." (who was obviously in her room at that point)
"Where are you going to go??"
"I dunno..."
"No! You have every right to come into my room, if Cassidy's parents want to bring their homelife to school and they have a problem with this, they can talk to me. [rant rant rant]"
So she let me into her room and...it was kind of painful...but I really wanted to see Ms. Wood.
She called Idy out into the hallway and talked to her about it as well--and I can't decide if this was a good thing or a bad thing. Because I feel like a Class-A Bastard for going against Idy's wishes like that. But I didn't try to talk to her...we blatantly ignored each other. Didn't even look at each other.
But what I did was wrong..........I'm such an asshole. I don't know what to do. I can't talk to her about it. This is just going to be hanging in the air until she's allowed to talk again. And by the time that finally rolls around, I'll have built up so much guilt, I don't know if I'll even be able to go through with it.
God, I...I hate the kind of person I am. I hate myself.
I really appreciate Ms. Wood's support and it made me feel a little better but...I can't help but feel like I should have just stayed away. It was cruel to do that. It was wrong, it was wrong.
Sure I have a right to see Ms. Wood but.....

And the worst part is, I can't even cry about it.